Someone just take my hand and lead me to better ground. Tell me everything is going to be OK. Just hug me. I really need somewhere I can feel safe. Somewhere I am not the one who is getting blamed somewhere where I can just curl up and sleep and not dreading tomorrow.
I thought I did everything right, I tried my best but I feel like there were no prizes and rewards. My reward is a marriage I live fearful in, getting blamed, yelled at, talked down to, and not trusted. My reward is a life I wish I could have but have no hope of having. All those things I thought were a partnership I have been told I will never have.
My fight is falling. I don’t know if I have hope, well today I don’t feel I do. I just feel down, super down. I know I deserve more than this but don’t know where to start and get it. I have been there for so many and thought someone would be there for me. I don’t know what I am getting at but I know I deserve more than this and want more than this and wish I was on higher ground.
I wish so badly someone would tell me we can do this together, I am going to be there, it is OK and they would be.