So I dealt for years with someone not emotionally available, and I thought I did better as we got to know each other I am realizing so, are you. You act like you are emotionally available but the truth is I have no idea what your pains are what hurt you the most with your own divorce. What you cry about, what you desire the most, where you have failed, what you dislike and want angers you. You just act like every day is good. Here or there you show me a blimp or emotion but it isn’t enough.
This is the beginning I can’t imagine how you be in a relationship, would you push me away all the time, would you not make me feel connected. I am just not feeling you can let me in. I don’t deserve to be kept at an arms distance. I don’t deserve to be shut out, I don’t deserve to be only told the happy moments.
I wish you well. There is a really good guy waiting for me and I can’t waste myself on someone who can’t let me in after many months.
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